[Movie] After watching "Looper"

I've just finished watching the movie "Looper". I'm crying because of their love. The love is so great. And I found I'm so weak and stupid. I'm embarrasing myself. If I would be in such situation, could I do such a thing? Could I choose such a thing? He changed his life, even though the choice will not be better for him. And he changed the.....

I want to change my life.

I have wanted to changed my life.

I will change my life.

I will change our life together with Joan.

I love you.